I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

Chorus:
If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
(Damn that's sad)

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me

Chorus (Repeat)

Drenched
in
my
pain.

I'm a happier girl. :) Thank God for Pertrina. Thanks dad, you know I love you.

Friday.
Fullerton Hotel with Val! :D Talked & had dinner at Town Restaurant. :] She been through a lot & she was so strong. She's so much stronger than before. Now that she've got Allan, getting married this Nov, I'm happy for them. Allan's her third boyfriend & she started dating since 16. One thing she did that make me feel like doing was, go to the temple, pray & hope that everything goes well & if it does, I'll eat vegeterian for half a year. Glynis hates being a vegeterian, FYI. Left the place at 10plus, got home at 11pm. Texted some people, called Qiaos & off to sleep.

Saturday.
I thank God for putting you girls in my life, at the point when I needed you both the most. Although there's nothing much that you can do. :] Bus 161 & trained then LRT-ed. We had fun on the way, making fun of people, teasing each other, camwhoring. :] Got there, something scary happened, left the gift there & left. I had jelly legs when we left the place. I was so nervous for whatever reason, I don't know. Hahah. :D Trained down to Queensway & realised we got it all wrong, cabbed down to Queensway Shopping Centre. Wanted to get dunks but all not nice. Walked down to Ikea. Sassy got boxes & I wanted to get the photo frame but 'cos we're going to shop again later, must carry very troublesome. Hahah Yj came after awhile! Cabbed down to Cine, went to the washroom & walked to Taka. We went on our seperate ways, Sass with Yj & Qiaos with me. :] I wanted to go home 'cos I wasn't feeling good so left around 6pm, Qiaos went to look for her friends. On the way, in the train, Never Gone & I Still was playing. Tears fell & I wore the shades to make them silent. Was texting Eilis & some bitches was laughing at me for whatever reasons. Eilis called & asked if I wanna join them, herself, Cecilia & Janet. Told her I needed get home at 8pm so they came down. Thanks sweets! Got Hooch & went to one of the void decks to drink. Eilis was so redddddd. Hahah. :] Poured my heart till Sass & Yj came. They broke the Hooch bottle by smashing it. Damn funny. :) Left the place at 8plus going 9pm. Showered & slept.

Sunday.
I woke up early to go church. Left around 10plus, dad drove me there. :] I just feel like I wanna be with God for awhile & listen to what He wants to tell me. There's so much I wanna ask Him. Hm the mass started at 11am. Even when He was troubled, he didn't ask God to help him get over it. He thanked God for everything. :] If I didn't get it wrong then that's what they were trying to say luh. :) I prayed really hard, like I never did before. I asked for so much, thanked Him for everything he have given me, apologized for my wrongdoings. I promised that if she ever come back to me, I'd pray everyday with the rosary. & within this time before she returns, I'd pray everyday before I go to bed. How silly, I've never done this. Ended at 12 & dad came to pick me up. Went down to Aunt's place for Prawn Noodle Party! Damn retarded, I wonder who came up with this name. Ho. x) Family gathering again. :] Pam & I went to Kovan in the afternoon after doing a little of my work. Wanted to get my earphones so went down to Hougang Mall to get it. $49! Geez, anyway I'm not the one paying so yeh. Pam bought some cds & makeup. Took a train back & walked to Aunt's place. Bought bubble tea! :D Hahah Pam's damn full of nonsense. I was wearing my Crocs & she called me Crocodile for that. Hahah. We were complaining about little holidays, hot weather, stupid weekdays. Hahah going out with her is fun. She always get me stuff & will say, "I'm not forcing you, you know. It's okay if you don't want. I'm not like your godma. Want or not lah!" Hahah definite yes! :D

Ate prawn noodles! Did my homework. Pam helped me with my letter writing. :) Thank you babe! Hee. :] Left the house at 6plus, dad drove us to uncle's fav dining place & had dinner there. I laughed so much that I almost lost my voice! Thanks to Jonathan, that funny bastard. We were shouting across the room & everyone knows what we were talking about. I asked him about the turtle & hare story, the one Mich asked me, he got cheated! Ho. x) happiest. I won la, hahah. Left the place at 9pm. On the way home, I asked myself if the laughters was for real & I realised I don't feel happy at all. I did that 'cos I wanna let the family rest assure the happy Glynis is still here, the jovial me didn't leave. I don't want them to worry 'cos my aunt's very upset about me being so quiet. So yeap, she was really happy that night. She laughed till she could hardly breathe. :) Val asked me the same question I asked myself, hm. Rushed home, called Qiaos & watched Superstar Finals. Geraldine's out man, ugh. ): Did my letter writing & slept.

Monday.
School was bloody fucked up & I decided to skip school the next day. My sexy art teacher scolded me again & I complained to Mom. She told Dad & he wants to see her. Oh well, go ahead. :] Church after school. Weird I know but I just felt like going so I went with Mich. Sent Bestaye to the bus stop & waited for the bus with her & left. Qiaos went home & after church, we went to her place. Prata time! :D Thanks Qiaos, for the sexy prata. :) Talked, used the comp. Helped her with her com & I fixed it! :D ho, so smart. Downloaded Limewire for her, teached her how to download & al, uploaded the pictures into photobucket but it didnt work 'cos file too big, only managed to get a few. Left her place at 5plus. Wantd to cab back but no cab. Decided to take bus. Funniest thing that ever happened was, I took the wrong bus. :\ Hahah alighted at godma's place & called up daddy. He was uber sweeet, he came down from office & sent me home. He was still working but since I needed help so he came! Omg daddy, I love you, really! :D Called Cheryl, talked & told her what happened. Helped Cheryl did some stuff. Texted Pert & talked on the phone for an hour I think. Hung up, texted her till I fell asleep. :)

Today! (like finally)
Pert was such a nice dad, I swear. She texted me early in the morning. I knew she'd be online 'cos she's working & al, so I went. We talked for the whole day already. :D She was there when tears fell, thanks daddy. We got into something interesting, hahah. :] Mailed Val & she was worried for me, but I'm okay now. Called up Cheryl in the afternoon 'cos she was still crying. That silly girl. Pert managed to cool her down a little though. Talked to her & I don't know how should I put it. We cleared things up? No. We quarrelled? A little. We argued? Kinda. So yeap. Misunderstanding here & there. :] But I felt much better after that talk. Cried the whole morning since I woke up. Ah, what's new la. I think this is gonna be the last time I'm crying over her. Time to get over her & move on. :) So the next time when people ask if I'm ok obviously when I'm not, I'd still say I am. Went to the polyclinic, bought stuff & went home. My maid cooked spaghetti for me. :] So online he whole day, talked to Pert & Cheryl. The both of them knocked off already so I'm talking to Prunella now! Might be meeting her this Saturday. Cool yo. :)


I can be a much happier girl. :) I mean, well look, she can & so can I. Glynis is coming soon babies. :] I'm gonna stop breaking down, seriously. -sings I Can't Break Down. I cried so much & now, knowing that no one will pity you. Who do you think will? None will. So I better save those tears for people who worth them. :] I'm getting on better, seriously. Pert made me happier, hee. :]


I don't know why each time I feel so damn happy about something, someone just had to spoil it. I'm giving up. Do I have to make this so clear? Did I said there was hope? I merely said I wanted to wait. I changed my mind, seriously. After what she told me, what happened behind the scenes, I changed my mind. You see, you know me best, you know I can't take the truth. Thanks for knowing that & I'm glad you know. But if you remember, I said I wanted to know, right? Sigh I don't know la. ):





Your heart changed overnight, how amazing.
<3.